Was chatting with Daylene over msn and discovered that i really lost alot of my time in the lab, becoming something very different from the real me. I really gotta apologize (esp Amelia and Daylene) for being MIA for sooo longg! i miss you guys. we used to chat long hours over the phone, resolving any issues each one of us is facing; deciphering the meaning of life.. somehow we lost that.. each one of us just started to face our issues alone now, forgetting that we will always stand beside each other. So far beatrice is the only one i've been meeting =) but i'm going to extend it out. i am going to make up for the lost time. and i'm coming back with a BLAST.yes work is important. but it is to balance things out and NOT overwhelm us with what is more important. for now, i have identified family and friends as the most important things in my life - i am here for them and nothing else. i dont want to lose that meaning ever again. yes i am going to continue to keep myself busy, but it is going to be busy with friends and family. =)
Went out with Xinyi, Xinhui, Tianxin and Eugene for KTV today to celebrate Stella's Birthday!! Hope Stella had a great day.. and it is the perfect excuse for us to unwind after Honors year projects!! wow... i almost forgot this feeling of going out and just enjoying the company of friends AND without worry!!!!! haha... well i forgot to bring camera out. so pics are all with xinyi.suddenly my shopping craze comes back.. it has been a long time since i went orchard. bought kimchi and chocolate for my lab people. wanted to buy two thick brown leather belts that would go well with blue jeans and also a more formal black belt, preferably with different textures for different textured black trousers. but i decided to just check out the price before i head to bangkok where i will just sweep.. haha.. and many many accessories. xinhui said guys' stuff are all the same so why so difficult to buy. bingo! exactly because guys' stuff are so similar so it makes all the small subtle differences significant enough to be scrutinized and to be mixed and matched.. so it is ALOT harder!! oh man.. i'm in very very strong urge to expand my entire wardrobe (clothes + accessories) which has remained stagnant for about a year. i also need a decent watch i think.. havent worn one for 4 years.but right now, gotta focus abit more on exams. =)
Yes!! Finally survived one of the biggest ordeals in my life which is Honors Year Project. i think it is the biggest one so far. I have given my best shot.. If i dont do well, i guess i shldnt have any regrets. Two more exams to go.. Dont really have much mood to study for them. More into meeting up with my dearest friends whom i was forced to abandon due to heavy lab commitments and definitely more into searching for a deeper meaning in life. The perfectionism in me which refuses to let go had kept me to hang onto something which was not really myself from the beginning. As i dug deeper and deeper into the lab hole, i really lost alot of the bigger picture around me which matters more.Life is about give and take.. as i re-evaluate the choices which i have made last time to pursue a good education and henceforth always putting work as top priority, i lose alot of time to develop relationships. Perhaps it is just easier to work, it is more tangible and real and it remains a record for life while relationships can be transient.A new life outside lab now awaits, definitely less time-consuming but maybe more draining.. =/
