Life Travels

Friday, June 08, 2007

Seeking Balance

Ok, as requested by Paulene Ong.. let me update abit..

no pictures for this one.. haven't been travelling (for one weekend actually.. haha..) cos it is the FINALS week.. i hate exams.. i dont know why i am so stressed even though the grades here don't matter.. hmm actually it does matter abit.. if i am coming back to the States to do grad school, i'm sure they look at my UCLA GPA score, perhaps on the same level as my NUS CAP score.

Or perhaps it is the perfectionism in me which is not letting go.. i know life is imperfect but in my small world, i always try to make it as perfect as possible.. i know.. going against the inevitable, against entropy.. putting in energy.. blah blah.. Why cant we just do the things we like to do? When can i have the time to sit by a coffeehouse and read my favourite book? Why am i even studying?

In fact i was a little distraught a few days back.. i think i haven't accomplished anything much at all. but thanks to Gabriel, he taught me something valuable which made me feel a little better: It is the rarity of the ability to do the things you want to do that made the things you want to do more valuable.

Come to think of it, i was quite slack this quarter and i feel damn slack and i didnt accomplish anything at all. I didnt even go to a coffeehouse to read my favourite book. Thus, it is all about BALANCE! When i go back Singapore, i promise to treat myself better! Nonetheless, the thought of going back to my hellish times (working from 10am to 11pm mon to sat, sat is slightly better - i can get off at 7pm) in the lab is sending chill down my spine. =(

blabbered by Jinzhan at 6:51 AM |